The loss

With an intended change (see my previous post), I am very likely to risk myself to lose of what I am supposed to have. However, before the expected loss there first came the unexpected one! The loss was so shocking that we could hardly bear it although she is unrelated. Being emotionally hurt is coupled with physical tiredness. The change itself has changed us to be harder working yet at least for what I see as a betterment. We will go through it, though. 

Anyway, I am now awaiting the real change ahead.